Break Up.

It's been about 2 weeks since I broke up with Jeff. Broke up with him on August 5th. I honestly don't know how I feel about it. My mood is all over the place. At times I miss him and at times I feel super good not being with him. Reasons for breaking up with him is of the way he has been treating me. More like, for the past monthS. He took me for granted really. It sucks trying to hang out with him, trying to talk to him, and trying to fix things with him. He didn't want to do any of the three. His bad habits were worsening and it was something I really didn't want to deal with it anymore. He basically pushed me away when we were together and the last time I checked, relationships are not supposed to be like that. I did love him at one point, and as time went on, it only faded. Not once has he taken me for consideration this year. I can't think of a time. Last year when we first started going out he did, however he completely stopped. Never did little things for me, never did big things for me. He didn't even bother for my birthday. He is very inconsiderate. He thinks about him and other people but it was never me. I slowly figured out that me and him weren't going to work out. When everything began to click, I told him I wanted to a break for 2 weeks. I got the break, and I felt better. My life was going on the same without him because I was basically with him but not actually with him. His friends hit me me up more than he ever did. Not being with him while we were together only made this break easier because I was never with him. He was embarrassed of me. He was an idiot. Then when we actually broke up, he tried changing for me. How fucking retarded. "Once it's gone, you realize how much you miss it." He really did. He was heartbroken. He was lost. He didn't know what to do. I can tell how he looked at me. He basically begged to get back with me. Jeff was too late. That's all, he was too late. Trying to use "love" to get me back. Trying to "change". No, you should have had been with me from the beginning, rather you smoked weed with your friends, than hang out with me. Well you did all of this, and it is time for both of us to move on. I believe that I have become a more strong and confident woman. Time does heal all things, and I do believe there is another person out there for both of us. We weren't right for each other. I need someone who will make me genuinely happy. As of now, time to be single. Time to travel and actually live without another person's weight bringing me down. I can do this. Time to try harder and be stronger than before. &♥;AD.