since

since it happened, i seem to cry.
whenever i hear a song that reminds me, i seem to cry.
whenever i see you, i seem to cry.
whenever i talk to you, i seem to cry.
just hearing you voice, i seem to cry.

my eyes won't stop having tears.
my nose won't stop having boogers.

i'm talking on the phone with you right now.
you just asked me if i was crying.
and i said no, i just have a stuffy nose.
but i lied.
yes, i am. i'm crying.

half of my room, revolves around you, and it sucks.
i've never cried so much in my life, i know i haven't.
its been 3 days straight.

i really, really, really think my heart is broken.
i try to hold it in but for once, everything just seems to come all out.

i tried making an excuse to come see you tomorrow. or tuesday
but it didn't work.

we say its for the better. but no, i think not.
maybe this truly is the end. i think it is, i just hope its not.

i know, 10 months isn't compared to 2 years.
but, those 10 months is why i can't stop crying.
those months of being with you.
having you as my boyfriend.

boyfriend.
-someone i can hold hands with, whenever i want.
-someone i can cuddle with, whenever i want.
-someone i can kiss, whenever i want.
-someone i can talk to about anything, whenever i want.
-someone to express all my feelings to, whenever i want
-someone who is willing to deal with me.
-someone who can wipe my tears.
-someone who will cry in front of me.
-someone who can fart in front of me.
-someone who can pluck my armpit hairs.
-someone who can go everywhere with me.
-someone who can teach me how to drive stick.
-someone who cares a lot.
-alexander sia

&♥;AD.