Why yes, I am a fuck up. Why yes, I did fuck up. Why yes, I am bipolar when am stressed. Why yes, I want to move away from here. Why yes, I have no girl friends. Why yes.
I miss seeing my dad. I don't see him anymore. Should I be worried? I ask my mom every night where he is, and she doesn't even know. Should I still be worried?
College is making me go loco. I am not getting in anywhere. I am stupid.
New friends and old friends. I have nice new ones and the old ones are being resurrected.
I have someone new to talk too. He gives me tips, he gives me ideas. He is now my new and old good friend that I can tell stuff too. He understands and he can relate. Im thankful he is back in my life.
Should i stay or should i go? Will my life be more miserable if i leave, or will it improve? I hate the future. I miss the past. The present isn't doing me any good, so should I do something about it to ease the pain. I'm lost in my own mind. I need to make up my mind.
I think i need a new hobby to get my mind out of stuff. Maybe back to racing? I miss it. I miss being able to be free and just let my hatred die when i win. I miss that feeling. I miss the smell of gas, haha. Take me racing again someone.
There is so much on my mind, but not everything is coming out. I guess I'm being myself.
i just need tell my mind out,. whatevs. am tiredd.!
&♥;aileendelgado.
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