My week has been absolutely good to me. Making new friends, keeping old, talking to the ones that I've isolated out of my life. Friend's that you argue over something stupid and ending a relationship of friendship. The whole new friends, its jusut really really nice to encounter with new friends. Especially, because I sorta maybe kinda am crushing/liking one. He knows it though. He's my Snorlax<3, he has a cute tubb, a cute rattail, a cute personality, a cute face, and a cute everything :D Keeping old friends. Im already keeping them! SO, something that really did change today and the past week. Im talking to my ex boyfriend again. Just as friends though. We havent talked since like November. We basically hated each other, whatever. We're friends now. Its just akward talking to him again, but then again, its good that we're not arguing anymore! And am talking to Alex Juarez too! Everything is going all right with friends and such. Its just school that i have to deal with. Its something I can't deal with any longer. It stresses me out and I just lose it. Im tired of it. I already hate that school. It's just whatever. Blah.
4/28/09
Today, my mood was hella bipoloar. Today sucked. I hate my school still! I got home and took a nap. Woke up and talked to Snorlax<3 Web cammed and talked. He's so freaking cute. gah deng. I really hope we dont like stop talking the way we are now just because hes going to college. -__- I dont know, i heard ish from like everyone. It sucks, life sucks now and then. I wrote something today. "I always have doubts, its not good. I have some hope, now and than, but it fails me. I hate my second thoughts, they bring me down. I like the truth, but it tears me apart. good night." I wrote that, then i took my nap. I hate how little things stress me out, and i hate how i try to avoid it or try to hide it by acting as if im alright. And im really not excited for my birthday either. This Friday. just one more year than am 18 O: oh my. I tend to change the subject a lot when i write. It bothers me. Like right now. Im talking about how wtf i am and now am talking about my birthday! I dont even know whats going on that day anymore. I thought i was going to hang out with Phillip and have a korean day, but thats not happening anymore. I thought i was gunna hang out with Alex also, but im pretty sure hes going to ML's sisters birthday party thing. Blah, i kinda just want to stay home now oe rock climb. Or I want to just have an arts and craft day :D SO, ima just plan this out myself for Friday's activities. Friday is gunna be a date with myself! First, after school, go to Michaels and but some craft stuff, or maybe i want to go to Color Me Mine!! Ah im so indecisive. Well, Second, if i go to Michaels, go home,and clean my room, and do my thangg with them art supplies & possibly re decorate & rearrange my room! 3rd, Take a nap! :D 4th, go to Mora sushi, treat myself to how much i can eat. 5th, go rock climb, maybe? 6th go home and do whatevers. Well, if that doesnt go the way i want it too than! FIRST, go home from school, look pretty, and then go to VG. SECOND, go to Color Me Mine, and make something nice for myself! :O THIRD, Get food at Kabuki & or look for clothes. FOURTH, go home, and SLEEP!. idk what im doing! LOL, ima take my imagination with me on Friday for sure though! 3 more days . Im so hungry, my parents only made meat again for dinner, as always. I barely eat anymore. My dinner was 2 Nature Valley Bars. Im going to get sick again, i know it! i hate how i get sick like every 2 months. ): I hate not eating right, i should already know that thers isn't going to be dinner for me anymore! My dad stopped giving me lunch money, so my lunch at school is more Nature Valley. So unhealthy. I give it a couple more days till i start to throw up again ! ): Whenever i eat wrong i usually throw up, and it hurts. i dont know, im used it & im tired Good Night.
♥;aileendelgado.
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