beat up I

I feel weird. I dont know what my mood is anymore. Bipolar much? I think so. I hate wearing a mask everyday. I hate not having that opportunity to be myself anymore. I try to and I hope its working. I use sleep as my escapre from reality. I sleep too much and thats my problem. Everyone always needs their rest, but I, I have rested to much. I need to wake up. I hate using "I" all the time. But I want to change and use "I" for my achievents & the goals I have accomplished. I havent come there yet. I want to get there now. I need to get there now. I want success.