Woke up swell today, it was quite cold. Got to school, school was whack, I had a hour and 5 minutes of History today. CAN YOU SAY UGHH BORING!! Today went by semi fast. Its onlyTuesday. So its SLOW. Im putting effort into trying to talk to you, well I think I am. but the responses I get back seem like Im not even worth talking too. I wrote 2 pages last night in my real journal/diary thing about you. Im giving in? Im giving up? I dont know. Jon told me I should move on. I think I am. Im tired of waiting. Or am I? I have to many questions for myself to answer. It sucks because Jon also said "Dude, Aileen, I can tell you like him because when you like someone you can't stop talking about him. And you can't stop talking about this one." I hate it, I hate how I assume way to much. I hate how I fall in to easily. I hate how I found someone but then it was pretty much a joke. Liking you seems like a joke now. Im Super confused, sad, dissapointed. When really, I shouldn't be. I keep choosing you over all these other guys. It's weird because I would usually move on. But here I am still writing about you. ok whatever, I will see what the future has planned for me. I need someone more mature than me. .. so i just wrote this like 5 mintues ago, than I read your blog right now. Im done. Im moving on.
SO besides my life drama and irritations, School. I noticed how whenever my teacher asks for prayer intentions, I always raise my hand and say for my parents and Jon. <3 Got home. Comptered, Ate. Went to my room. Ripped pages from my small dictionary and highlighted words that meant a lot to me in my life. And putting them on my wall. This process is taking a long while. I made a new Pen Pal today, Carl! haha this is going to be fun. I love writing. Deng, this whole blog i wrote did not make sense and is scattered. haha, whatever. Texting Neck right now. Faggot got my letter and asked me about my boy... Lameeee, I wrote to him and told him about you. But I guess its over , so no more. Im going to finish my wall now. and wait for 8 oclock to arrive so i can continue watching Avatar. good night.
oh fuck. im starting a newer blog for this today.
♥;aileendelgado
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