notebook

so i watched it. for the first time ever.
gah did that movie make me think a lot.
decisions are the hardest to make.
am i making the right decision?
im tired of getting hurt. im tired of acting like everything is alright all the time.
fucking notebook music makes you cry too. askl jskltj
but, i hate always second guessing you. the only reason why i think that is because it seems like the only time we talk is when you're over. when we do shit when you're over. it sucks how you stopped calling me at night. we stopped talking. oh hey myspace? oh hey aim? lets say hi, whats up, how are you, etc. for like 5 minutes. oh ok.. but when you come over you talk to me? but that seems like the only time we talk. if you were in my position wouldn't you think exactly the way i feel? feel used? i asked my close friends about this. and they agree with me. but it sucks how much i like you and this is how i feel. & what also sucks is that it seems like im putting all the effort in this "relationshop." at least i make the actual move to make things better. i just want the old times. when i first met you. the cute thing you did. give me a flower, a bracelet. i still have that flower. well happy 3 months and 2 days since ive met you.